thoughts

Here i am, at the last leg of my first forage into European lands.
in this beautiful apartment, just before i turn in for the night,
i am thankful.

For this opportunity to see the world,
for sight; for the means to travel; for the blessings from my loved ones
To see a different side of the world,
Away from my everyday work life, away from the comforts of home

Relearning history once more:
Seeing places where historical events took place,
and living amongst the people whose parents/grandparents experienced these firsthand
I am thankful, selfishly so, for being born in a time and place of peace.

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I missed the departure of beloved miumiu.
My furry companion and friend.
You will be remembered.

#thankyouPastor #CityHarvest

I grew up in City Harvest Church.

From being a little primary two year old girl, who thought she was mature (haha), to the almost twenty five year old i am today, City Harvest is the place where i have connected and learned to connect with my heavenly father. This was where i learnt to speak in tongues, where i learnt more about relationship with him. This is an experience that cant be replicated by being in school, or by hanging out with friends.

I am sure every single member who has genuinely felt the love and presence of our lord in church, will feel for the episode that our church management is going through right now. Afterall, the church is the gate of heavens, it is where we experience emotions so pure, so unadulterated. It's hard not to be grateful, to be thankful of the sacrifices the heads and earthly shepard of the flock made for us, so that we can feel this love so free.

Pastor Kong received a mandate from God, that he should be the one to raise a generation of people that will influence the marketplace. Though i am unable to recall if the vision of the Crossover was from God, i have no doubt that it is. It is a brilliant plan. To save more souls through mainstream media. He knows the world is ready for this. How much more effective can evangelism get? In jaded, first world nations?

So that day, my mom told me that 'Justin Bieber something something church service', and i shrugged it off, thinking it was yet another satirical article, because, in my head, i couldn't make the link between delinquent, womanizing (according to 'news' online!) Justin Bieber to church, church!

And today, out of curiosity, i went to google it. And lo and behold, it is true.

http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/la-et-ms-justin-bieber-notebook-20151116-story.html

A little revelation hit me. I remember one sermon i heard. Why it's important to stay attuned and close to God. Sure, God does have a plan for you, for everyone of us --

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

But as with every grand plan, there is not just one vessel sailing toward that end port; not just one warrior sent out to ensure the enemy is taken down.

He picks a few. And why is it important to stay close and connected to him? Should we fall short, we wouldn't be attuned to his plans, and things will go awry. And in that sermon, a burning question i had was addressed by the preacher. If we do stay obedient, and we go astray, what happens to God's plans? Answer: It goes as planned! Because He does not only have one vessel sailing the stormy seas and He definitely wouldn't choose to fight a war with a one-man army.

Seeing Justin Bieber returning into the comforts of His arms, and using his tour to open up about his new-found purpose, really affirms that the Crossover project is no sham. It is indeed part of God's grand plan for the world today.

If he is the warrior that succeeded in planting seeds in the minds of millions through mainstream media, then Pastor Kong, Sun and the rest of the team, could very well be present-day martyrs. I believe in God and His plan, and I want to believe that my pastors have been morally upright and made decisions thinking of His Plan, and were aware of the pitfalls of moving ahead with the Crossover in a fairly closed-minded, and critical country like Singapore.

We are only human. They are only human. Only He is perfect. Irregardless, I cannot discount the fact that they obeyed, and acted on bringing the Crossover project to life.

I thank them for their bravery, for their courage and admire the love and obedience they have for God. Because honestly, how many of you religious people/ Christians out there will carry out such a mission when presented with one by God above?

Take into consideration that they are learned people, from the best schools in Singapore -- Raffles JC and VJC! In the eyes of the Singapore government, if they weren't pastors of CHC, they would be known as the elites of our society who are expected to do great things and contribute to greater positive growth to the country. It would take great courage and love to take this road less traveled and to do His bidding.

I don't know what He has install for me. (Perhaps i will need to connect and check haha.) But should the burden be this heavy, Lord grant me a stronger back to carry on moving.

#thankyouPastor

Awake

Write me a love letter.
Tell me about your zest, your love, your excitement
Speak of the plans you have
These reveal your thoughts, your time invested.

Write me a love letter.
Love, me.

question-time

You are in a maze. You are running and running and running.

Do you have a map? You think you have a map. Your map is probably wrong. You use it anyway.

Do you walk? Where do you want to arrive at? Why run if you don't know where you want to arrive at? Why don't you walk? Because everyone else is running?

Use a compass. Breathe. Run and walk at intervals. Sit. Stone. Breathe.

Silly to run faster just to buy nicer running shoes..and keep running again.. to build a nice little shelter and keep running again.

Want to know something funny? I hate running. Really. Literally, running.
Mazes are kinda cool. And i need to get my compass working again.

ramblings of a surefooted goat

“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away."

I'm not sure if it's because i'm approaching my mid-twenties (it probably is).., but there seems to be a nagging urgency to find my gift/purpose/guide for the most of my life.

I know there is no one true direction, things can happen and plans must change

To quote Khloe Khardashian, "God must be laughing when we make plans"; till then I want to find something to do for myself. Just myself.

Does every other 24 year old out there feel the same?

I used to be so happy to grow older.....when i was 13 and a half, i'd say i was 14. And since i was 22, all i wanted to stay is 22,..and now yes i am still 23. (For just less than a month) #joke #topsyturvey 

The Textbook Answer

Simple. Everyone knows what's the textbook answer to some queries in life, yet how many of us really do it....?

I'm trying to carry out my textbook answers nao.

If you have no idea what's your answer, google it. Or ask me, my friend <3 p="">

Happy week ahead (this is so important)

smells

A reward of a long day's work.

A gentle, loving glance from my dearest za. A long squirmish cuddle. Tucking into home-cooked dinner -- not prepared by myself. Indulging in an episode of Parks and Rec/ OUAT. Seeing my darling. Meeting and unwinding with my girlfriends. Seeing the family at home. Just being home.

I don't even know if it's a hard day's work -- i ought to measure my work more.

I don't even know if it's a good day's work -- i don't think today was good..

Yet maybe, it's better if things aren't good good. There's room for improvement then.

Revel in the bad feelings. because it's an amazing thing to be able to feel.
i.e. im not a non-living thing

Melissa, Melissa....

Hello hello

Tryna squeeze as much as out to make my weekends a fulfilling one.
#livingfortheweekends I love my weekdays but they simply fleet by.. and so do the weekends.

So, this is how it is? Life after 21? #fastandfurious

#waitingformyshowstodl #slowdowntime

All in all, im thankful for everything, from my sweet pup to having to drag myself outta bed at 0730. And my sweetest boyfriend everrrr. Naaww she's licking me as i type this.

Your creations are beautiful <3 always="" and="" evil="" from="" guide="" lord.="" one="" p="" protect="" the="" us="">