hello 2018

Wow. I just saw a friend (thanks Joy) post this quote on her Insta account, and I am blown away.

I saw that you were perfect and so I loved you. 

Then  I saw that you were not perfect and I loved you even more.

It then dawned upon me how true it is.. my darling the one that I am besotted with, was once a stranger to me, another face in the crowd. And not knowing someone, it makes them seem perfect. Another face - eyes, nose, mouth, in the sea of faces.

And time revealed his quirks. I braced myself for a deal breaker, but thank you Lord, there were just quirks. An endless list of them. Keep them coming baby, because that's why I am loving you more and more each year. (One quirk a year is sufficient.) 

A quirk is a silly little thing, that forms a cherished memory. So many moments in time I can look back upon, and it will bring a smile to my face. Thank you Tyfin Chng. For all your quirks and silly ways.. and imperfections. 

As you once said,

你不是买肉，how can you 选选选! 

We all come as one being, flaws and quirks and all.

I can't imagine not having met you. What would be of all my happy memories?

Thank you God.

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This quote also gave me a revelation of how Abba Father sees us.

Why do You, almighty God, creator of heaven and earth, bother with flawed beings such as us? I have not read enough to know why. I only know the 'what' -- what you did for us.

Today, i  got a glimpse of the possibility of the 'why'. Have you loved us through our imperfections? You have grown to love your creations who you know would love you back.

Free will, though it makes evil possible, is also the only thing that makes possible any love or goodness or joy worth having.

2017 was the year I devoted more time to walking and talking with my King. And praise the Lord, I am not in lack. God you are so amazing, and you will forever be my rock. For you are unchanging, and ever faithfulI just pray that in 2018, you reveal more of yourself and your mysteries to me. 

I love your mysteries, and goodness, and miracles.

Good night world.

How am I 27 this year, when I still feel like a child...

You leave me awestruck

You leave me breathless

All of You Lord

All of You Lord

We scale mountains

We roam the seas

Searching to be in awe

Because you've set eternity in our hearts

Eccl 3:11

In his funeral sermon on Dr. Livingstone, Dean Stanley worked out a thought of a kindred kind. The earth, he said, is, broken up by seas and mountains, so that the nations seem destined to live apart; but in man’s breast there is a thirst for exploration and discovery, an unquenchable longing to know all that can be known of the world in which he lives; and as this desire takes shape in action, obstacles vanish, and all ends of the world are brought close together. The fact that the world is thus set in man’s heart, so that he is prepared to explore it, to understand it, to use and to enjoy it, is surely a proof of design in Nature and of the wisdom and goodness of the great Creator.

Dear Father,

Your word amazes me.. it is a bore to those who cannot fathom, myself included. Seek wisdom before opening it,.. and the same sentences look so different at the 10th read. At once I feel like I am caught in a magical realm, not unlike the wizarding world of Harry Potter.. for you are a God of miracles. And I believe in miracles, and magic, because I believe in You.